I'm going to regret this post

I know for sure I'm going to regret this post, but I want to start this blog the way I intend to keep it. Open and honest. So today, this week, my mum is annoying me. (If you are reading this mother, think long and hard before you read on.)
She means well, and I know she is excited about having little girl (lg) when I go back to work. But just for now, I wish she would shut up about it.
I don't want to go back to work, right now for us its a necessity. We can't afford the mortgage and buy food etc on Miki's wage. For the last few weeks I want to enjoy the time I have left with LG, I don't want to think about someone else looking after her. I don't even want to think about Miki looking after her.
I know this is selfish, and I hoping over time once I'm back at work I'll feel a bit better about it.
(I'm not really expecting this to get any easier ever, but I can't face that either.)
I"m also annoyed that mum keeps talking about how she's going to take her to garden, go to the library etc and I start to feel bad that I haven't done any of that stuff. I just sit at home with her, but thats what I love too.
I'm starting to worry that my mum is going to dash her around all morning and when I get home LG is going to be so overtired that all I get a cranky baby who can't even get to sleep because she is so tired.

Finally on top of all of this, I can't seem to get across to my mum that she is not going to be the primary carer. She is just looking after LG when Miki can't do it. I keep telling her, but she doesn't seem to listen.
I'll be so glad when this first term is over and we can set up a more settled routine in term 4.
OK Rant over.
Mother if you read this, don't talk to me about it. I don't want to have that discussion.